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After the screwed up in Alvina, moga-moga gak terjadi lagi di sini. Semoga job ini lancar, gak ada problem, gak ada lost time, gak ada failure, gak ada DQR problem, gak pake stuck, gak pake fishing, gak pake TLC, semua lancar dari awal sampai akhir dan semua senang. Mohon pertolonganMu, ya Allah, mohon dengan sangat. Semoga pulang dengan membawa good result. Aamiin..

Finding the dreams

That is what i'm doing now
But i have no idea
I don't know where to begin
Or how to start
Anybody can help? anyone?


--Please ya Allah, would You help me to find the way?--

What I Want To Be When I'm 25

Dewita, my bestfriend, even remember this wish better than me. She said that i ever told her, i want to be an enterpreneur on my 25th. Open my own caffe or whatever the thing is. My job now is just a first move to get there. I will quit after few years or as soon as i have the investment to run my own 'company'.
I also talked before, i will marry with good man when i'm 25. We (me and my husband) will have a small happy family (KB, bow) and i will watch my chlidren grow amazingly. I will built the house just next to her so we can meet everyday in tukang-sayur-ceremony or send our kids to school together (ngg, kayaknya sempet direview lagi, jadinya nganternya gantian, ya Dew, hehe).
I'm 25 now, but none of my bullshitt above be achieved. Having -late-chat-night with her lately (ngg, month ago?) remind me of that. Of course, you can say they're all depend on fate. But, "Allah tidak akan merubah keadaan suatu kaum kecuali mereka berusaha". Still not too late i guess, to catch them. Maybe the first thing to do is to find out whether they are still my dream or find another options so then there will be another chat to discuss -what-i-want-to-be-when-i-am-26.
I remember before i joined this blue company, even before i took the entrance test (hired test? whatever!), after i graduated, my parents asked me where i want to work. I said i'll be working for 'Blue Company' and work overseas. Seems to ambisious and optimistic, considered i knew nothing about oilfield or that company. But well, i'm with them now, eventhough i haven't work overseas, not until now, but at least i travelled abroad for sometimes.
Or on early period during my college time, on OSPEK, one of the -sok-galak-bertampang-rese-plus-so-annoying-senior asked me, how fast do you want to be graduated and how about your IPK? Bravely i answered that question with -Siap-kak-lima-tahun-IPK-minimal-3. And all of my seniors just laughed and teased and said impossible and looak at mevwith -what-the-hell-is-this-junior-think-talked-such-as-nonsense-in-front-of-almost-DO-senior-is-she-looking-for-trouble-or-she-just-so-stubborn- face. Well, few years latter after it happened, i got what i said, with some plus-plus.
I'm not trying to be arrogant or stubborn or being -i-can-be-whatever-i-want-to-be-no-matter-what- here. This is just a reflection for my self, that i can be a better person if i have the strong spirit to do that. Motivation! Tekad Baja! Nekat bin Nyolot! They are missing in my life now. I'm now living my life without any abnormal motivation (normal motivation: muda kaya raya, tua bahagia, mati masuk surga), without any passion. That's why i don't feel satisfy lately. I guess i have to start join back into dream-catching-team. Just the short-term-one as priority, then i can think later about the long-term-plan. Late is better than never.
Semoga Allah meridhoi...

SWOT

Allah memang Maha Adil. Setiap orang tercipta dengan setiap kelebihannya sendiri. I love the way she wrote rather than her (hehe, siapa juga gw ya, nilai-nilai ma ngebandingin orang).
Di keluarga gw, adek gw slalu komplen karena katanya kakak2nya lebih 'berhasil' dalam bidang studi, jadi dy stress gara-gara dibandingin mulu. Gw slalu jealous (dalam hati) karena kakak gw selalu lebih excellent dalam bidang study dibanding gw (yeah, graduated by honour for bachelor and master degree, always on time, studied in France, what else words to said other than excellent) and selalu yang paling diinget ma tante-tante dalam kluarga gw. Atau kagum ma adek gw yang slalu praktis, unik, dan funny. My dad said once that she actually the most jenius one in the family, is just she never realizes that. Kakak gw mungkin 'mengagumi' sesuatu dr gw (hehe, kalau ketemu lagi, tar gw tanya ah). Just as i said before, Allah Maha Adil. So, never felt down to yourself. Kamu hanya belum tau, apa kelebihanmu.

Ps: If i asked hunny about my strength, i knew the answer already. Paling jago tidur (oh man, i sleep like a baby, i have the hypersomnia disease), dan ratutepu (hehe, no wonder, dulu klo temen2 gw pulang telat, gw slalu jadi sasaran nelepon ortunya ato nyariin alesan buat ortunya). Mmm, did i miss something, hun? ;p

Not as i thought

http://brainstorm92.blogspot.com/

Gosh, this girl is just amaze me. I thought she just -tipikal-artis-muda-jaman-sekarang-hoby-foya-foya-otak-gak-punya. Ok, sound too cynical, i agree, walau banyak aja sebenarnya yang kayak gitu. Tapi cewek ini, kayanya darah seni emang ngalir kuat di darah dia, cara dia menulis tuh keren banget, bikin hanyut aja sama ceritanya (i always love words and always fall in love easily with people who can play with them beautifully). And the way she thinks, she's mature, indeed (menurut gw loh..). Dia dewasa dalam pemikiran dan kesendiriannya. If she write a book, i definitely will buy.

Ps: I love reading someone elses's blog. Eventhough i don't know he/she personally. Some of them are really smart. And somehow, i (think) can just read their personality.

thought

What the hell i'm doing here
I don't belong here
Not anymore

..gotta finish my tasks and projects here, SOON!!!!..

TM-84_6in

Rush banget kemaren, jadi berharap banyak, semoga job ini lancar, gak ada lost time, gak ada TLC, gak ada fishing, gak ada LWF, gak ada masalah DQR, gak ada problem sama sekali, cepat selesai, semua senang dan cepat pulang. Pleaseeeee......

for mommy

Mom's birthday tommorow. Mungkin gak bisa kesana secara langsung dan bilang selamat ulang tahun (i'm just too lazy to fly there and back in another day ;p). So, i just wanna say here (and of course tommorow whenever i called you,
Happy birthday, Mom
Semoga selalu panjang umur dan sehat
Semoga kebahagiaan berlimpah padamu
Semoga selalu dalam lindungan Allah SWT
and..
Thanks for being the best mother i ever have..
Love,
'Na

Rumah Masa Depan

Belakangan lagi iseng googling tentang rumah-ruamah di Bandung Utara. Punya keinginan sih, untuk punya rumah di sana, terutama daerah Sersan Bajuri. Tapi setelah liat penawaran harganya, aduh ampun, kayanya belum sanggup deh. Mau nekat beli dan nyicil juga kayanya terlalu keburu-buru. Mungkin nanti abis lebaran bisa mampir ke sana untuk sekedar survey.
Alternatif lain di Jakarta Selatan (rumah ya, catet, bukan apartemen, i always love to touch the ground). Di daerah Veteran (tempat saya tinggal sekarang), atau mungkin di sejalan dari Bintaro ke Pondok Indah, ato malah di bilangan PInya kalau ada rejeki lebih. Soalnya tempat-tempat di daerah itu strategis banget, makanya kalau saya harus tinggal di Jakarta, saya cuma mau tinggal di Selatan, 'ga pake tawar menawar.
Dulu Jogja sempet jadi pilihan, di daerah Kaliurang. I always love that town, setelah Bandung dan Jakarta. Setiap liburan, pasti nyempetin untuk ke sana kalau enggak rasanya gak komplit. Padahal tempat yang didatangin tempat yang sama-sama lagi. Tapi setelah peristiwa Merapi, kayanya jadi last choice deh. Agak-agak ngeri soalnya.
Well, dengan kerjaan saya sekarang, masih belum kebayang dimana saya akan berdomisili di masa depan. Makanya rumah-rumah yang saya incar sekarang (ngg, itung-itung investasi), pengennya di daerah yang bisa dipake buat berlibur, bukan crowded area. Tapi ya itu tadi, UUD, semuanya balik lagi deh ke keterbatasan kantor. Yah, mungkin nanti Allah merestui dan ada rejeki nomplok ke kantong gw, hehehe :)