That topic came up in one of my conversation with husband, and in one of training i attended recently. Basically, the question was, "What do you think people say about you in your funeral, and what do you want to hear?" Most probably it will create two different answer, since reality sucks.
Anyway, i can instantly think of an answer for second question: "people thankful i was exist", but scratched my head for first question. I am such bad person in maintaining a relationship. I think one of the reasons why i almost have no fight with my husband cause not everyday we are seeing each other :) I have few good friends, when they are physically around, but after that, disappear. It takes two to tango, either i'm (acting) too busy, or the other parties. So my safest answer is, "depend on who will say it". Anyway, quoting my friend, it does not matter what will they say, i was not there anyway....
Ps: so random post. Something are just stuck in my head almost exploding don't know what
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Tak perlu keliling dunia .... part 2
"Dengarkanlah kata hatiku
and again, this song became my life soundtrack
Bahwa ku ingin untuk tetap di sini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Biarkan ku di sini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Karna ku tak mau jauh darimu
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Karna ku tak mau jauh darimu
Dunia boleh tertawa
Melihatku bahagia
Walau di tempat yang kau anggap tak biasa
Melihatku bahagia
Walau di tempat yang kau anggap tak biasa
Biarkanlah aku bernyanyi
Berlari, berputar, menari di sini
Berlari, berputar, menari di sini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Karna kau di sini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Kaulah segalanya bagiku di dunia..."
Karna kau di sini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Kaulah segalanya bagiku di dunia..."
and again, this song became my life soundtrack
cause i am coming home, to my love, family, and friend
and i hope in my next journey, you will be with me..
Saturday, September 20, 2014
ratugalak
A colleague asked why i used ratugalak as my social media ID. He asked if i am "galak"
I said, "I wish i am. I think my life would have been easier if i am galak"
What do you think?
I said, "I wish i am. I think my life would have been easier if i am galak"
What do you think?
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Random mumble
When a father married off his daughter
He handover his responsibility towards the husband to be
He trust the guy can do it better than him
Or at least as good as his care
For all the husband in the world
Would you ask yourself this question
Did i ever fail my father in law faith?
And of course the same thing goes for the wives to mother in law
He handover his responsibility towards the husband to be
He trust the guy can do it better than him
Or at least as good as his care
For all the husband in the world
Would you ask yourself this question
Did i ever fail my father in law faith?
And of course the same thing goes for the wives to mother in law
The annoyed "Kapan..."
There is only one thing that holding back my excitement of going home soon.
That i have to face those Kapan ini Kapan itu question again.
Arrrggghhh, just leave my life alone, won't you?!?!?!
That i have to face those Kapan ini Kapan itu question again.
Arrrggghhh, just leave my life alone, won't you?!?!?!
Sunday, August 03, 2014
Society class
I was a bit upset reading an IG post from a celeb - socialite
It was meant to be a prayer from a mother to her birthday boy, hoping that he will grow up as a down to earth person, hang out with anyone from any society class, and so on
A good one though, and i believe it was sincere. She got many positive feedback and compliment, too.
However, i had different opinion when i read her words, "Aah, so this is how you see yourself and the world. It is you who draw the line, how would you hope your kid will cross the line?".
High class, middle class, low society class.
There is no such thing, in my opinion.
Those just classes that people create to differentiate themselves from other. I would not think that way.
God creates people equally and they born with their own fate.
Ada yang mungkin secara ekonomi kekurangan tapi memiliki kelebihan di hal lain (e.g. jago masak, pinter, jago lukis, etc). Bisa juga kebalikannya.
Unfortunately, our society tends to see everything from economical perspective. Postingan artis tersebut membuat saya sadar, itu adalah pemikiran yang diwariskan turun temurun. 'Gak aneh kalau sulit untung dihilangkan sebagaimana layaknya tradisi.
If you tell your kid that he/she is luckier or richer, so they should help other; that will stay in their mind. I will not surprise if they grow up with superior feeling in front of others, and felt that they are almighty when help others. You got what you want though, he/she can hang out with anyone, but the sincerity is different.
Semasa sekolah dulu saya punya group belajar, anggotanya hampir setengah kelas. Temen-temen yang lebih menguasai satu mata pelajaran, saling berbagi. Pada akhirnya, bukan cuma ada satu guru di kelompok belajar kami, tapi beberapa. There where the balance is being created. Saya yang rada telmi di Biologi dan Geografi tertolong banget dengan trik dari teman saat menghafalkan lapisan bumi. Sementara saya yang lebih PD di hitung-hitungan, kebagian mengajar matematika atau teman2 sejenisnya. Ada juga teman yang tidak begitu kuat di mata pelajaran manapun, tapi itu bukan soal. Cause they are such a lovely friend, and their existence made us happy (they are fun, too, belajar pasti boring kalau gak ada mereka).
That is what i meant. Berbagi bukan melulu tentang finansial. And that should not the only thing you emphasize to your kid. Jokowi mungkin 'gak akan jadi presiden kalau bukan karena para relawan (regardless the social class of those volunteer).
Bahwa semua orang sebenarnya sama. You might have one thing but you lack on other thing. So there is no such thing as classes cause it will be so absurd. Think about it: in which class i would belong? Mideconomy OKbrain so-socookingskill lackofashionsense highexposuretointernationalworld class. Is that kind of class exist?
If i have a kid, i will pray so he/she grow up as someone which the existence is meaningful to others. Could be a doctor who help cure the illness, a teacher who teach the kindness to the world, a businessman who open the work opportunity for others, comedian who spread the laughter, or housewives who give the warmth to the family. I hope he / she will sincerely love others and be lovable by others: friends, family, or just anyone. Seseorang yang setiap langkah dalam hidupnya selalu diridhai Allah.
Life is about take and give. And it will be more fun if you could see more. Going to different places, make friend with anyone, eat in whatever place you want. Do not let those not-exist society rule limit you.
Call me naive, overly sensitive, too hush, or irrational. We just have different opinion in seeing the world. That's it!
It was meant to be a prayer from a mother to her birthday boy, hoping that he will grow up as a down to earth person, hang out with anyone from any society class, and so on
A good one though, and i believe it was sincere. She got many positive feedback and compliment, too.
However, i had different opinion when i read her words, "Aah, so this is how you see yourself and the world. It is you who draw the line, how would you hope your kid will cross the line?".
High class, middle class, low society class.
There is no such thing, in my opinion.
Those just classes that people create to differentiate themselves from other. I would not think that way.
God creates people equally and they born with their own fate.
Ada yang mungkin secara ekonomi kekurangan tapi memiliki kelebihan di hal lain (e.g. jago masak, pinter, jago lukis, etc). Bisa juga kebalikannya.
Unfortunately, our society tends to see everything from economical perspective. Postingan artis tersebut membuat saya sadar, itu adalah pemikiran yang diwariskan turun temurun. 'Gak aneh kalau sulit untung dihilangkan sebagaimana layaknya tradisi.
If you tell your kid that he/she is luckier or richer, so they should help other; that will stay in their mind. I will not surprise if they grow up with superior feeling in front of others, and felt that they are almighty when help others. You got what you want though, he/she can hang out with anyone, but the sincerity is different.
Semasa sekolah dulu saya punya group belajar, anggotanya hampir setengah kelas. Temen-temen yang lebih menguasai satu mata pelajaran, saling berbagi. Pada akhirnya, bukan cuma ada satu guru di kelompok belajar kami, tapi beberapa. There where the balance is being created. Saya yang rada telmi di Biologi dan Geografi tertolong banget dengan trik dari teman saat menghafalkan lapisan bumi. Sementara saya yang lebih PD di hitung-hitungan, kebagian mengajar matematika atau teman2 sejenisnya. Ada juga teman yang tidak begitu kuat di mata pelajaran manapun, tapi itu bukan soal. Cause they are such a lovely friend, and their existence made us happy (they are fun, too, belajar pasti boring kalau gak ada mereka).
That is what i meant. Berbagi bukan melulu tentang finansial. And that should not the only thing you emphasize to your kid. Jokowi mungkin 'gak akan jadi presiden kalau bukan karena para relawan (regardless the social class of those volunteer).
Bahwa semua orang sebenarnya sama. You might have one thing but you lack on other thing. So there is no such thing as classes cause it will be so absurd. Think about it: in which class i would belong? Mideconomy OKbrain so-socookingskill lackofashionsense highexposuretointernationalworld class. Is that kind of class exist?
If i have a kid, i will pray so he/she grow up as someone which the existence is meaningful to others. Could be a doctor who help cure the illness, a teacher who teach the kindness to the world, a businessman who open the work opportunity for others, comedian who spread the laughter, or housewives who give the warmth to the family. I hope he / she will sincerely love others and be lovable by others: friends, family, or just anyone. Seseorang yang setiap langkah dalam hidupnya selalu diridhai Allah.
Life is about take and give. And it will be more fun if you could see more. Going to different places, make friend with anyone, eat in whatever place you want. Do not let those not-exist society rule limit you.
Call me naive, overly sensitive, too hush, or irrational. We just have different opinion in seeing the world. That's it!
Monday, July 28, 2014
Lebaran, right here, right now
Lebaran tahun ini bagi saya cukup berbeda..
Tidak mudik
Tidak sungkem atau silaturahmi ke sanak famili (physically)
Tidak ziarah ke makam kakek nenek tercinta
Tidak ada ketupat bersama teman2nya (esp. Lidah!)
Tidak ada aroma sedap malam
Tidak ikut halal bihalal
Namun ada pelajaran berharga yang saya dapatkan di Ramadhan tahun ini...
.. summer ramadhan ..
Puasa 19 jam, maghrib jam 9.30pm, taraweh midnight, shubuh jam 3 pagi
Akhirnya lebih sering buka dirapel dengan sahur dan puasanya jadi 24 jam (atau minum susu habis taraweh untuk sahur)
Saya jadi membayangkan orang lain yang kurang beruntung yang puasanya mungkin lebih dari 24 jam, atau tidak bisa berbuka / sahur dengan layak
.. living as minority ..
Sepanjang hidup saya, hampir seluruh bulan puasa saya habiskan di Indonesia. Pernah pula ramadhan di Malaysia dan Mesir, tapi itu pun negara Muslim, jadi suasananya pun hampir mirip
Cape juga mesti ngejelasin atau menolak ajakan lunch bareng
Atau nyium aroma makanan saat lagi laper2nya :)
Saya jadi teringat bagaimana kita memperlakukan minoritas di negara kita. Sebagai mayoritas, kita meminta mereka menghormati ibadah kita, tapi sudahkah kita memberi perlakuan yang sama kala mereka beribadah?
.. belief and persistency ..
Saya bukan muslim yang sempurna, tapi saya berusaha mempertahankan nilai-nilai yang saya anggap benar
Sebisa mungkin tidak meninggalkan yang wajib dan menjauhkan yang haram
Ini urusan saya dengan Tuhan, tidak ada kaitannya dengan hubungan sosial
Apapun itu, saya bersyukur masih diberi kesempatan menjalani Ramadhan tahun ini
Bisa merayakan Idul Fitri terlepas dari suasana yang berbeda, karena yang penting esensi kembali fitrah itu sendiri
Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1435H. Selamat berlebaran bersama keluarga dan orang-orang terdekat
Mohon maaf lahir bathin atas segala kesalahan
Semoga kita dipertemukan kembali dengan Ramadhan di tahun mendatang
Image diambil dari mataperisaham.com
Saturday, July 26, 2014
The Colour of My Love
I'll paint my mood in shades of blue
Paint my soul to be with you
I'll sketch your lips in shaded tones
Draw your mouth to my own
I'll draw your arms around my waist
Then all doubt I shall erase
I'll paint the rain that softly lands on your wind blown hair
I'll trace a hand to wipe out your tears
A look to calm your fears
A silhouette of dark and light
While we hold each other oh so tight
I'll paint a sun to warm your heart
Swearing that we'll never part
That's the color of my love
I'll paint the truth
Show how I feel
Try to make you completely real
I'll use a brush so light and fine
To draw you close and make you mine
I'll draw the years all passing by
So much to learn so much to try
And with this ring our lives will start
Swearing that we'll never part
I offer what you cannot buy
Devoted love until we die
Paint my soul to be with you
I'll sketch your lips in shaded tones
Draw your mouth to my own
I'll draw your arms around my waist
Then all doubt I shall erase
I'll paint the rain that softly lands on your wind blown hair
I'll trace a hand to wipe out your tears
A look to calm your fears
A silhouette of dark and light
While we hold each other oh so tight
I'll paint a sun to warm your heart
Swearing that we'll never part
That's the color of my love
I'll paint the truth
Show how I feel
Try to make you completely real
I'll use a brush so light and fine
To draw you close and make you mine
I'll draw the years all passing by
So much to learn so much to try
And with this ring our lives will start
Swearing that we'll never part
I offer what you cannot buy
Devoted love until we die
- I love you, more than yesterday. Through the good times and through bad. Till death do us apart-
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Democrazy
German colleague: "Yesterday was the President election right, in Indonesia. Who won?"
Me: "Both candidates declared won based on Quick Count result"
German colleagues: "So what does it mean? War?"
Me: "amit-amit, jangan sampai kejadiaaaaannnn... :("
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Orang asing aja tau
I was so proud when my boss, not an Indonesian and don't nor ever living in Indonesia, said this, "So, Rina, who do you support as the president for 2014? I like the tall and slim one (sorry Pak, hehehe). What is his name? The current Governor of Jakarta? He looks so genuine and so down to earth. I saw some news about the way he works too, very promising.."
Finally, it is no more about how difficult is doing business in Indonesia, or so much corruption, or difficulty in getting good people there. One more positive thing (other than how beauty the country is or high happiness index in Indonesia) was associated with us. We still have some hope....
Ps: Mimpi gue 'ga muluk-muluk. Cuma pengen punya presiden yang bisa memungkinkan gw ke kantor jalan kaki tanpa baju nyampe kantor jadi bau karena polusi :)
Finally, it is no more about how difficult is doing business in Indonesia, or so much corruption, or difficulty in getting good people there. One more positive thing (other than how beauty the country is or high happiness index in Indonesia) was associated with us. We still have some hope....
Ps: Mimpi gue 'ga muluk-muluk. Cuma pengen punya presiden yang bisa memungkinkan gw ke kantor jalan kaki tanpa baju nyampe kantor jadi bau karena polusi :)
Friday, June 13, 2014
Lesson from my father
Waktu nonton Mata Najwa episode Menatap Indonesia, komentar dari Wakil Ketua KPK, Bambang Widjajanto, membuat saya teringat pada Papah. Komentarnya begini, "Fundamental pemberasan korupsi seharusnya dimulai dari rumah / keluarga"
Let me tell you about my Father.
Ayah saya adalah tipikal orang batak banget: tegas, cenderung galak, kadang nyeremin. Sewaktu kecil dulu, kalau beliau jadi penceramah di shalat tarawih, jamaah akan hening, karena kalau tidak, bisa kena semprot (ibarat SBY yang marahin menterinya kalau ngomong sendiri waktu sidang kabinet). Ibu saya pernah cerita, beberapa kali jadi olokan temannya karena ayah saya, yang semasa kuliah adalah asisten dosen, terkenal killer dan tidak ragu memarahi kelas sebelah kalau terlampau berisik kala beliau sedang mengajar.
Ayah saya Insinyur sipil, tapi boleh diadu pengetahuannya di bidang apa saja karena kesukaanya membaca buku. Waktu SD, Ayah saya beberapa kali menjadi guru tamu di sekolah saya, untuk topik EQ. Semua murid biasanya tobat kalau beliau yang ngajar karena tidak ada yang dapat nilai sempurna di tesnya. Untung beliau hanya mengajar Kelas 6, dan kala itu saya masih kelas 5. Tahun berikutnya beliau tidak lagi mengajar, karena kesibukan dan menghindari tuduhan nepotisme kali ya :p
Ayah saya kelahiran tahun 1950. Di usianya yang sudah lebih dari cukup untuk pensiun, beliau masih bekerja. Kadang saya merasa bersalah, karena harusnya giliran saya yang menafkahi beliau. Di masa karyanya, beberapa kali beliau harus bekerja di luar Jakarta, luar Jawa, bahkan mungkin di luar negeri untuk menafkahi kami. Mungkin itu juga sebabnya Adik saya cenderung lebih dekat dengan beliau, karena sesudah Adik saya lahir, beliau lebih banyak bekerja di Jakarta.
Ayah saya merintis karirnya dari awal: pegawai lapangan, insinyur, sampai kini menduduki puncak jabatan. Saya beberapa kali melihat beliau harus berganti pekerjaan ketika perusahaan tidak lagi sejalan dengan idealisnya. Ada pula masa di mana keluarga kami mengalami cobaan secara ekonomi, namun beliau tetap berpegang pada pendiriannya. Di mata saya sosoknya tidak pernah berubah. Ayah saya dulu dan sekarang, sama kepribadiannya.
Ayah saya boleh dibilang turut andil menopang ekonomi keluarga (adik-adiknya) sejak beliau masih muda. Namun semua dilakukannya dengan senang, dan sekuat tenaga beliau mencoba untuk bisa membantu. Saya selalu bangga kalau mendengar cerita kakek saya dahulu tentang usaha ayah saya menjaga kebahagiann keluarga. Sikap ini sebenarnya ditunjukkan tidak hanya untuk keluarga, tapi juga teman-temannya. Ada suatu masa dulu saat saya membantu beliau di kantornya, saya menjadi saksi mata kala beliau menyumbangkan hampir setengah gajinya kepada bawahannya yang tertimpa musibah, padahal keluarga kami juga sedang membutuhkan. Rasanya saya waktu itu ingin teriak, "Jangan semuanya, Pah".
Ayah saya adalah role model saya. Jika kesuksesan diukur dari pengabdian seseorang kepada masyarakat, beliau adalah contoh nyata. Di lingkungan manapun kami tinggal, beliau selalu jadi "tokoh" karena kemauannya turun tangan. Kehidupan sosialnya juga tidak pernah timpang, dikenal baik dan disegani para tetangga. Selalu menjaga silaturahmi dengan keluarga dan relasi, dan dihormati bawahannya. Sejauh pengamatan saya, dalam menjalankan kewajibannya kepada Sang Pencipta pun tanpa cela. Di kesibukannya, beliau tetap mampu menjaga keseimbangan hablu minannas dan hablu minAllah. Sesuatu yang saya rasa belum mampu saya kuasai hingga kini.
Ayah saya mengajar anak-anaknya lewat sikap, contoh, dan tauladan. Tidak banyak dengan kata. Beliau menunjukkan bagaimana prinsip harus dipegang teguh, agama adalah modal utama untuk hidup, dan menjaga silaturahmi adalah harus. Kebahagiaan di dunia penting, namun bukan segalanya. Keseimbangan harus tetap dijaga.
You must live as a noble man, katanya. Jika tiba saatnya nanti kau harus mempertanggung jawabkan perbuatanmu di akhirat, tidak ada yang bisa membantu selain amalanmu
I miss you, Dad! A lot :)
Let me tell you about my Father.
Ayah saya adalah tipikal orang batak banget: tegas, cenderung galak, kadang nyeremin. Sewaktu kecil dulu, kalau beliau jadi penceramah di shalat tarawih, jamaah akan hening, karena kalau tidak, bisa kena semprot (ibarat SBY yang marahin menterinya kalau ngomong sendiri waktu sidang kabinet). Ibu saya pernah cerita, beberapa kali jadi olokan temannya karena ayah saya, yang semasa kuliah adalah asisten dosen, terkenal killer dan tidak ragu memarahi kelas sebelah kalau terlampau berisik kala beliau sedang mengajar.
Ayah saya Insinyur sipil, tapi boleh diadu pengetahuannya di bidang apa saja karena kesukaanya membaca buku. Waktu SD, Ayah saya beberapa kali menjadi guru tamu di sekolah saya, untuk topik EQ. Semua murid biasanya tobat kalau beliau yang ngajar karena tidak ada yang dapat nilai sempurna di tesnya. Untung beliau hanya mengajar Kelas 6, dan kala itu saya masih kelas 5. Tahun berikutnya beliau tidak lagi mengajar, karena kesibukan dan menghindari tuduhan nepotisme kali ya :p
Ayah saya kelahiran tahun 1950. Di usianya yang sudah lebih dari cukup untuk pensiun, beliau masih bekerja. Kadang saya merasa bersalah, karena harusnya giliran saya yang menafkahi beliau. Di masa karyanya, beberapa kali beliau harus bekerja di luar Jakarta, luar Jawa, bahkan mungkin di luar negeri untuk menafkahi kami. Mungkin itu juga sebabnya Adik saya cenderung lebih dekat dengan beliau, karena sesudah Adik saya lahir, beliau lebih banyak bekerja di Jakarta.
Ayah saya merintis karirnya dari awal: pegawai lapangan, insinyur, sampai kini menduduki puncak jabatan. Saya beberapa kali melihat beliau harus berganti pekerjaan ketika perusahaan tidak lagi sejalan dengan idealisnya. Ada pula masa di mana keluarga kami mengalami cobaan secara ekonomi, namun beliau tetap berpegang pada pendiriannya. Di mata saya sosoknya tidak pernah berubah. Ayah saya dulu dan sekarang, sama kepribadiannya.
Ayah saya boleh dibilang turut andil menopang ekonomi keluarga (adik-adiknya) sejak beliau masih muda. Namun semua dilakukannya dengan senang, dan sekuat tenaga beliau mencoba untuk bisa membantu. Saya selalu bangga kalau mendengar cerita kakek saya dahulu tentang usaha ayah saya menjaga kebahagiann keluarga. Sikap ini sebenarnya ditunjukkan tidak hanya untuk keluarga, tapi juga teman-temannya. Ada suatu masa dulu saat saya membantu beliau di kantornya, saya menjadi saksi mata kala beliau menyumbangkan hampir setengah gajinya kepada bawahannya yang tertimpa musibah, padahal keluarga kami juga sedang membutuhkan. Rasanya saya waktu itu ingin teriak, "Jangan semuanya, Pah".
Ayah saya adalah role model saya. Jika kesuksesan diukur dari pengabdian seseorang kepada masyarakat, beliau adalah contoh nyata. Di lingkungan manapun kami tinggal, beliau selalu jadi "tokoh" karena kemauannya turun tangan. Kehidupan sosialnya juga tidak pernah timpang, dikenal baik dan disegani para tetangga. Selalu menjaga silaturahmi dengan keluarga dan relasi, dan dihormati bawahannya. Sejauh pengamatan saya, dalam menjalankan kewajibannya kepada Sang Pencipta pun tanpa cela. Di kesibukannya, beliau tetap mampu menjaga keseimbangan hablu minannas dan hablu minAllah. Sesuatu yang saya rasa belum mampu saya kuasai hingga kini.
Ayah saya mengajar anak-anaknya lewat sikap, contoh, dan tauladan. Tidak banyak dengan kata. Beliau menunjukkan bagaimana prinsip harus dipegang teguh, agama adalah modal utama untuk hidup, dan menjaga silaturahmi adalah harus. Kebahagiaan di dunia penting, namun bukan segalanya. Keseimbangan harus tetap dijaga.
You must live as a noble man, katanya. Jika tiba saatnya nanti kau harus mempertanggung jawabkan perbuatanmu di akhirat, tidak ada yang bisa membantu selain amalanmu
I miss you, Dad! A lot :)
Monday, June 09, 2014
What am i to you
Hey, Hun..
What am i to you?
Am i the camera which capture all your moments
Or the purse which is hard for you to live without it but sometimes you unconsciously left it
Perhaps the coffee that you like really much and addicted to it, until the point you get dizzy if not drinking it
But you know what
For me you are my eye glasses
Which help me to see the world clearly
It is not that i can not see without it
It just often my eyes give me blur picture
First thing i look for once i wake up
The older i will be, the more i need it
Whatever the answer is
I love you..
What am i to you?
Am i the camera which capture all your moments
Or the purse which is hard for you to live without it but sometimes you unconsciously left it
Perhaps the coffee that you like really much and addicted to it, until the point you get dizzy if not drinking it
But you know what
For me you are my eye glasses
Which help me to see the world clearly
It is not that i can not see without it
It just often my eyes give me blur picture
First thing i look for once i wake up
The older i will be, the more i need it
Whatever the answer is
I love you..
Thursday, June 05, 2014
Crossroads
I used to be a decisive person, and i think i still am
I do not let people decide things for myself
Even though its a decision i might regret one day, as long as it is from me, i go with it
I do talk with other people, especially those who mean the world to me, but only to get their support. It won't change my believe though..
Yes, i might be quite stubborn in that sense
So i was in the crossroads lately
I have to decide what i want to do after my assignment here
Stay in the department where i already familiar with
Or do something new which could be riskier for my career, but actually thing that i really want to learn and do
I was brave at first
Whatever the risk, i take it. Whatever the challenge, i face it
But then people start calling me crazy to choose that option
They doubt i can survive there
Suggested me doing something else
So then i started shaking..
And running away
And chose the safest option i know
I put aside my dream for a while, the future that I've picture so well
Then there is this wise man
A person that his word and action inspires me always
Telling me his story
And say one thing, "There is no pattern in our life. You can not predict your future trend. Yes you can plan, you can make your best effort, but you will never know the outcome. We do what we can do now, and we tackle the future later. Stop thinking too much"
And another thing which felt like he slapped me,"If you afraid of taking the risk, then move away. I don't set up people for failing. How come you dream a success if you don't want to take the risk. Behind a great position, there is always a great risk"
So i wake up. Reflecting. What i want to do. What i want to learn. How i picture myself in the future. What job that makes me stay passionate.
So i decide to be honest to myself. I will do what i want to do. I dare to dream big, say it loud, go for it, and make it happen. I will just do as i normally do: my best.
Come what may. I am unstoppable.
Quoting my friend: You only need to choose the job. This is not about death or life. Just make up your mind and do what you think bring you closer to your dream. And if the thing does not work out, you always can choose again. Turning back, straight ahead, or take another turn.
And when the crossroad come again, i hope i already understand myself better...
I do not let people decide things for myself
Even though its a decision i might regret one day, as long as it is from me, i go with it
I do talk with other people, especially those who mean the world to me, but only to get their support. It won't change my believe though..
Yes, i might be quite stubborn in that sense
So i was in the crossroads lately
I have to decide what i want to do after my assignment here
Stay in the department where i already familiar with
Or do something new which could be riskier for my career, but actually thing that i really want to learn and do
I was brave at first
Whatever the risk, i take it. Whatever the challenge, i face it
But then people start calling me crazy to choose that option
They doubt i can survive there
Suggested me doing something else
So then i started shaking..
And running away
And chose the safest option i know
I put aside my dream for a while, the future that I've picture so well
Then there is this wise man
A person that his word and action inspires me always
Telling me his story
And say one thing, "There is no pattern in our life. You can not predict your future trend. Yes you can plan, you can make your best effort, but you will never know the outcome. We do what we can do now, and we tackle the future later. Stop thinking too much"
And another thing which felt like he slapped me,"If you afraid of taking the risk, then move away. I don't set up people for failing. How come you dream a success if you don't want to take the risk. Behind a great position, there is always a great risk"
So i wake up. Reflecting. What i want to do. What i want to learn. How i picture myself in the future. What job that makes me stay passionate.
So i decide to be honest to myself. I will do what i want to do. I dare to dream big, say it loud, go for it, and make it happen. I will just do as i normally do: my best.
Come what may. I am unstoppable.
Quoting my friend: You only need to choose the job. This is not about death or life. Just make up your mind and do what you think bring you closer to your dream. And if the thing does not work out, you always can choose again. Turning back, straight ahead, or take another turn.
And when the crossroad come again, i hope i already understand myself better...
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Kangen
Sudah lama tidak membaca tulisanmu
Salah satu hal yang membuatku jatuh cinta
Permainan kata di Diari organisasi mahasiswa dulu
Pesan singkat berima atau sekelumit cerita di Sibubu
Postingan di TxRx blog yang kini tak berjejak
Post It Note yang dibuat sebelum pergi
I miss that
and I miss you...
Salah satu hal yang membuatku jatuh cinta
Permainan kata di Diari organisasi mahasiswa dulu
Pesan singkat berima atau sekelumit cerita di Sibubu
Postingan di TxRx blog yang kini tak berjejak
Post It Note yang dibuat sebelum pergi
I miss that
and I miss you...
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
The story telling skill
Somehow i just realize this as my weakness lately
When i tell a story, it isn't structured well. It jumps around from start to end then to the middle, then starting again, and so on. People get confuse and most of the time they could not get my points straight away.
I think the way i write or speak reflects the way i think. I hardly focus to only one thing, when i work i tend to jump from one work to another, which amazingly i manage to finish them all.
I used to so amaze with my boss who really excellent in story telling. And it reflects in the way he presenting or selling the story to his boss. All logical, very structured, and easy to understand.
Maaaannn, i think i really need to work hard for this kind of thing.
Btw, read it somewhere, it could be the symptom of dyslexia. Am i?
Just saying....
When i tell a story, it isn't structured well. It jumps around from start to end then to the middle, then starting again, and so on. People get confuse and most of the time they could not get my points straight away.
I think the way i write or speak reflects the way i think. I hardly focus to only one thing, when i work i tend to jump from one work to another, which amazingly i manage to finish them all.
I used to so amaze with my boss who really excellent in story telling. And it reflects in the way he presenting or selling the story to his boss. All logical, very structured, and easy to understand.
Maaaannn, i think i really need to work hard for this kind of thing.
Btw, read it somewhere, it could be the symptom of dyslexia. Am i?
Just saying....
Monday, April 28, 2014
Tetangga Masa Gitu *our version*
Baru dikasih tau hunny ada tayangan sitkom baru di NetTV judulnya Tetangga Masa Gitu. Untungnya bisa streaming dari YouTube. Setelah dilihat-lihat ternyata lucu juga dan cukup dekat dengan kehidupan nyata.
Di SitKom itu diperlihatkan bagaimana perbedaan cara pandang, sikap, dan kehidupan sehari-hari pasangan yang baru seminggu menikah dengan pasangan yang sudah sepuluh tahun menikah. Tidak 100% sama, namun memang harus diakui ada perbedaan saat awal dulu saya menikah dengan sekarang setelah hampir lima tahun menikah. Apapun itu, selama bukan sesuatu yang sangat mendasar, we just laugh over it.
And here are some examples:
Tempat Tidur
Dulu: "Hunny, tidurnya jauh-jauh amat sih. Deketan sini.." *meski belum mandi*
Sekarang: "Ganti baju dulu sebelum naik kasur. Hiii, kamu keringetan. Sana jangan deket-deket" *taruh guling di tengah-tengah*
Sarapan
Dulu: "Besok suami mau sarapan apa?" *dan keesokan paginya sarapan sudah tersedia*
Sekarang: "Istriiii, bangun dong, suami lapar niiihhh" *dan istri baru bangun saat sudah waktunya makan siang itupun karena istri ikut kelaparan*
Ulang Tahun
Dulu: "Istri ulang tahun mau apa?" *yang biasanya dijawab dengan apa aja boleh. Kado dan bunga pun gak pernah absen*
Sekarang: "Suami, istri kemarin kalap beli tas kemahalan. Suami bayarin setengahnya ya, buat kado ultah" *yang transferannya baru nyampe sesudah istri meneror beberapa kali*
Berantem
Dulu: Debat kusir lima menit abis itu suami ngalah sama istri
Sekarang: Debat panjang sampai salah satu keluar kata "pokoknya"
Belanja Perabot
Dulu: "Hun, ini sofanya lucu banget. Beli ya.." *pasti diiyain apalagi kalau yang minta yang bayar*
Sekarang: "Tar ajalah beli reclining sofanya, tunggu diskon. Lagian liat deh, itu yang beli orang udah tua semua" *meskipun yang akan bayar yang minta*
I guess as we are more mature, we are more realistic in facing this life...
How is your version?
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Nothing compares to you
...tanahku tak ku lupakan
engkau kubanggakan...
Borobudur, Magelang
*berburu sunrise ala koper*
Maninjau Lake, Padang
*dan kelok ampak puluh ampak yang terkenal itu*
Samalona, Makassar
*virgin island philipine, lewattttttt!!!!*
Pantai (?), Pacitan
*a hidden treasure*
Taman Nasional Bantimurung, Makassar
*LoTR backup shooting place*
Pura Taman Ayun, Bali
Uluwatu, Bali
Kimabajo, Manado
*ini bukan dari kalender*
Taman Bunga Cipanas
*Keukenhof is nothing*
Bromo
Disclaimer:
No editing, no photoshop. Original output from camera taken by amateur
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
What is he to me..
My leader, in life and after life
My best friend for all seasons
My sparring partner
My everything
My love
My life
"Tak akan ada cinta yang lain
Kupastikan cintaku hanya untukmu
Pernahkah terbersit olehmu
Aku pun takut kehilangan dirimu..."
My best friend for all seasons
My sparring partner
My everything
My love
My life
"Tak akan ada cinta yang lain
Kupastikan cintaku hanya untukmu
Pernahkah terbersit olehmu
Aku pun takut kehilangan dirimu..."
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Lovers in Paris
From the city of light, ladies and gentlemen, please welcome, the Lovers in Paris........
From Versailles to Eiffel et Champ de Elysse to Disneyland to Louvre
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